"Could I Destroy You"

COULD I DESTROY YOU

Could I destroy you
With one misguided thought
Or slowly over time
Beyond memory
Until all life inside you stops

Could I destroy you
If I was too lazy to care
Add burden on burden
Blind to see
Someday you will not be there

Could I destroy you
By one fatal attack
I grow too powerful
You I do not defend
Everything will end

Could I destroy you

I already am

My Motley Crue

On 5 August, 1995 I met my little man. Rolling about, showing off on the counter of a small gift shop in Dunrobin Ontario. I had no immediate plans on getting a new kitten. Still being a teenager and in High School it was ultimately my mothers decision either way... and I didn't hold out hope, this wasn't the first time a kitten had warmed my heart. However today was different and 15 minute later we left the Gift Shop with my little fuzzy bundle of joy.

Motley's first day at home - 5 August 1995

There was no question in my mind as to what his name would be. Motley Crue, Motley for short. He spent the first few days living in my bedroom before being introduced to an entire house to roam and conquer. My grandmother who lived with us was never a "cat person" ... she made him a kitten toy... he was really part of our family.

Dec 1995

He was my joy. He kept me company, luved me unconditionally as cats always do and made High School a little more bearable to say the least. He even accompanied me to my final exams... can't say that the photo help me graduate or anything but I was proud of my beautiful yet somewhat crazy cat!

Motley and his little "brother" Cagney - 6 June 2004

In the past few years Motley has had some 'hiccups' in regards to his health. The worst of which put him in kitty hospital for 5 days but he has always pulled through. We are now less than one month away from his 15th birthday and his is having another 'hiccup' and I am concerned that it my be more. It started on my birthday - a kidney infection, not good, not the first issue with his kidneys either. It scares me a lot. It is not what I want for him or any member of anyones fur family... it is no way to go... I always wanted him to pass peacefully in his sleep in his favourite cuddly spot, happily, without pain, at a good old age... I am so hoping that this is still in his cards. I don't want to have to make that other decision... not now - not ever...

He is not eating much and is skinny, very skinny. I still hold out hope that it is not yet his time.

Everyday we look at our cats, dogs, any of our furry friends and know that someday, all too soon they will... we will have to say goodbye. Yet we luv them anyway, we open our hearts to them anyway and when we lose them, when our hearts are broken we know, that we will do it again...

Keep your thoughts with my little man, he needs them...

17 April 2010

"Door"

DOOR

My world is a revolving door
Move too fast
Lose my direction
End up where I was before
Standing
Two feet
I’m standing on a trap door
What I missed before
The door
The walls around me slide shut
I see where I want to be
My reflection from where I used to be
Distorted
Mind aborted
Trapped behind a closing door
Sliding door
Where I hid before
Found the right door
Locked as before
Key lies behind me
On the floor
I’m standing on a trap door
End up where I was before

Hysteria Face

One night last week I spent the better part of my evening crawling around in the crawl space under our edition. Last weekend was New Moon Rabbit Rescue's annual Garage Sale & Bake Sale. I know I have more stuff than I know what to do with and thought I could find a couple of boxes worth of stuff to add to the growing pile of treasures. I did in fact find A LOT of things I no longer needed or wanted, but to be honest I had other things that motivated me to crawl around cracking my head on the 2 1/2 foot high ceiling... I was looking for this,



The date on this is - 1996. Man, was I proud of this thing, still am actually. When I started making it I had no idea what it would look like but as it sat, waiting to be painted, that's when I decided it would be a perfect tribute to one of my favourite bands - Def Leppard

For anyone unfamiliar with Def Leppard, the 'inspiration' for the painting is from the album cover for Hysteria... hence the name! hahaha!

And for those who have never seen the cover...

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Cheers!!

"Child"

CHILD

Congratulations child
You’ve done somethin’ in life
That most people dream of
Only in the night

You shine so brightly
Nothing fazes you
Something burns inside
That never fades in you

What’s gone wrong?
What changes you?
So free a child
Something’s killing you

Where does it come from?
What’s tainting you?
I see you slipping
I fear for you

Can I help you child?
Hold you close
If I could only talk to you
I’m at such a loss

If only I knew the words
If only I had the chance
If only I noticed you
Then you would not pass

I feel I failed you
Left you behind
I still watch for you
You’re always in our minds