Hysteria Face

One night last week I spent the better part of my evening crawling around in the crawl space under our edition. Last weekend was New Moon Rabbit Rescue's annual Garage Sale & Bake Sale. I know I have more stuff than I know what to do with and thought I could find a couple of boxes worth of stuff to add to the growing pile of treasures. I did in fact find A LOT of things I no longer needed or wanted, but to be honest I had other things that motivated me to crawl around cracking my head on the 2 1/2 foot high ceiling... I was looking for this,



The date on this is - 1996. Man, was I proud of this thing, still am actually. When I started making it I had no idea what it would look like but as it sat, waiting to be painted, that's when I decided it would be a perfect tribute to one of my favourite bands - Def Leppard

For anyone unfamiliar with Def Leppard, the 'inspiration' for the painting is from the album cover for Hysteria... hence the name! hahaha!

And for those who have never seen the cover...

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Cheers!!

"Rabbits"

RABBITS

I don’t deserve to be bought because I’m young and cute
I don’t deserve to be tossed because you’re bored and want something new
I don’t deserve to live in the cold
I don’t deserve to be euthanized because I’m old
I don’t deserve to be bred for you to make money
I don’t deserve to be fed only carrots because you watch Bugs Bunny
I don’t deserve to die from neglect
I don’t deserve to be thought of as a disposable pet
I don’t deserve to be left in my cage
I don’t deserve to be hurt by your rage
I don’t deserve to be picked up by the ears
I don’t deserve to be ignored - you can’t see my tears
I don’t deserve to be thrown in the trash
I don’t deserve for my fur to be tied up in mats
I don’t deserve to be fed food that makes me sick
I don’t deserve to be raised in ignorance

I deserve love, compassion and kindness
I deserve a home that is real, forever and safe
I deserve to live without fear, sickness and hate
I deserve nothing less than you yourself deserve

I need you to know how much I need you
And with time you will need me too

To boldly go... or go quietly into the night?

I have spent far too many years looking back. The past can be difficult to let go of. It is safe, it is bold, it is young. It is everything we wanted to be but somehow forgot along the way. It is much easier to look back and ridicule yourself for the choices you have made then it is to pick up the pieces and simply move on.

I need to move on. I sit and look back at drawings and paintings and think of how I could have improved since then. I look at the dates in the signatures almost as punishment, a slap on the wrist for the years that have passed.

I need to start again. I need to put aside everything and start again... learn again. I picked up a paint brush a few weeks back to repaint a giant bunny named Kenny that I had made several years ago for my rescue. I felt more at peace than I have in a long time. Kenny isn't anything special, nothing brilliant or profound but it didn't matter - I was happy.

I have come to realise over the past few months how little anyone really knows me and maybe it is time that changed. About 4 1/2 years ago I start writing, sometimes I wrote a lot. Very few people even know this and I think it's time that changed as well... as terrified as I am to do so - it is time. I plan to start painting again, I would like to share that with you and occasionally throw in something from my past as well.